Is this Love :/

I was just wondering how people figure out that they have fallen for someone. I mean how and when do they realize that they are in love.

Are there any predefined symptoms? Any sign that confirms that you had feelings for someone? Sign that proves that you were actually in love? Anything that makes you say, “Yes, I’m in love”. Any hint like people playing pianos in the background like it happens in Hindi movies?


Did any sign work for you? Did they tell you whether you just liked someone or it was actually love? Well, if they worked then it’s good otherwise let’s suppose you just moved on and forgot all about your feelings; like or love or whatever it was.


Here’s few lines from one of my favorite movies ”Rehna Hai Tere Dil Mein”:
"ek ladki dekhi, one flash aur main apna dil kho betha, ab to bas ek hi tamanna hai - rehna hai uske dil mein !!"

Did you fall in love at first sight too? Or you don’t believe in such a thing? If you don’t believe in it then would you tell me how long one has to wait to confirm that he or she is or was in love. Few days? Months? Years? Or a lifetime? 

Anyway, when I see hope in your words, when I just cannot stop thinking about you, when I crave to talk to you, when I wish all my dreams should come true, am I in love? Is this really love?

Well I don't know..what about you ? ;)

Keep Smiling !!

Keep Rocking !!

It's my Life !!

Blogging is among one of those best things that ever happened to me in past few years. Yeah, I penned down my feelings whenever I was high/low/depressed/hurt or whatever it was but I hardly blog nowadays. It's not like I don’t get time to write or I don’t want to write, I am just unable to put my emotions into words. It's like there are no words at all. It happens when someone is either very happy or very sad, doesn't it? But that's not the case here. I'm just not able to write - just like that. Why?

Few things in life happen for no reason. Even if there's a reason, aren't we too busy or ignorant to go behind that reason? Well, I'm not sure though.

I was recollecting some really awesome moments of past and the first thing that I thought about was rain. Rain! Yeah, I love when it rains. Sitting inside my room and watching the amazing droplets hit the ground, and then getting drenched in rain. Today, I enjoyed Rain. The falling droplets filled my heart with joy and it refreshed me. I felt alive. I was happy for I could still respond to the beauties around me like before. The child in me was still alive, had listened songs randomly – anything and everything, loved to do that as wasn’t even sure which the next track is. Sometimes life is good when you are ready for unpredictable things and accept them as they are – without any modifications at all !!

Well! I finally had a weekend for myself. No parties, no hanging out with friends, just Me, some good MUSIC, good FOOD, Rain and I loved every moment of it. Spending time with oneself is way better than being stuck with someone whom you don’t like, isn't it?

I want to thank that someone who brings my confidence back every time I feel low. I'm really thankful to that person because of whom I'm happy now. I realized that I should let go of petty things in life and hold on to beautiful moments.

Keep Smiling !!
Keep Rocking !!

Two Worlds !!

When was the last time you hung out with your friends?

When was the last time you walked those silent and lonely roads?

When was the last time someone smiled at you, just for you and just because of you?

When was the last time your teacher punished you because you were being naughty in the class in her absence?

(If you can answer all the above mentioned questions then it’s alright but if you can’t or taking too long to respond, think once again about your life !! )

We try to live in two different worlds simultaneously; one online and another offline.

Firstly, we log-in then we share mindless things, laugh at silly jokes, cry for nothing, like meaningless statuses, comment on every stupid thing on our wall, chat with every known and unknown person, poke each other crazily, smile when we got nothing else to say.

We use smiley(s) most of the times. We don't have to waste our words instead we leave a smiley and everyone will understand what it means, no matter what and no one cares whether those smiley(s) really reflects your moods or conveys your emotions. Everyone use them because no one has time to think beyond them.

We are so addicted to these fake emotions and the glitter of the virtual world that we never realize that we are missing the reality, true beauties of the life and the nature, some true relationships that need our time and attention.

And then comes life : offline, where neither fake emotions nor words help us much. Life cannot be planned. It's all about instincts and how profound we are at the moment of need. People see through us when we fake, at least the people who truly care about us. And when we smile, they smile too. They stay with us through our good and bad times.

Both lives online and offline have their pros and cons, however we should always prioritize reality because that's what is going to stay with us till the end.

 

keep smiling !!
keep rocking !!

 

After nine months of absolute care !!

In a dark night, I wake up from my dream to face the real world. Being curious, I want to know where I am. There are people all around me. I see everyone, every face...some hateful, some pitiful and others expressionless.

Where are those eyes through which I used to see this beautiful world? Why is this lap so uncomfortable? I want to feel the warmth of those caring hands that always caressed me affectionately. This world, which threw me away as if I'm a waste, is not worth living without that person. Why I am unwanted? Why they don't want me? Just because I'm a girl, don't I deserve their love and care?

Oh! Now, I'm in an orphanage. I see myself in every face here. We are special children of God so he wants us to be under his care, at his home.But why didn’t he ask me whether I really want to be with him? Why didn’t he let me choose between him and my mother?

I need you, Maa. I want you to hold my hands, tightly and say to this damned world “Here’s my sweet angel, my daughter!”

p.s keep Smiling !!

     keep Rocking !!      

                            

Just a thought # 7

      



why some dreams are so beautiful so that they never come true?

why some faces are so lovely whom we can't forget?

why some wishes are so expensive, we can't afford them through out our life (As to remain happy always)

why some pain are so heart breaking we can't mend it with words?

why some relationship stop working and we never ever be able to mend it?

why some situations in life are so unexpected and we run out of words?

why some expectations become need with the passing time ?





"Just because life is damn unpredictable?

or we just predict it in a wrong way? "

p.s   long time, no updates on my blog !! life really get messed up sometimes  !!! hope everything will be fine soon  !!

All i need is.. You !!

Let the words remain unsaid…..

Let the feelings remain unshared…..

Let the dreams remain unseen…..

Let the prayers remain unfulfilled…..

Let the tears remain unnoticed……

Let me remain imperfect…..

No I don’t have anything to share, to ask or to complain about…

All I need now is YOU from the crowd around me…

 Don’t pretend to know me..

When I even don’t know.. where I am…
 

Just sit beside me.. and make me feel

You are there …forever.. and ever for me…….


 

p.s happiieeeee diwali :) :) 

Thoughts become things.. choose the Good ones !!

There is so much suffering and pain in this world, we always think about OUR pain, suffering, hurts,  heart breaks and  keeps on complaining to God why he had given so much pain to me only.

 Why don’t we ever care about others how they feel, how much they suffered in life, how this world made their life a complete mess.
 

I had always believed God sees everything and he knows your limitations of suffering the pain, he never ever gives you more than that, he  is so particular with the amount .  No one can play your role better than you and that might be the reason.. u can handle the given situation more nicely then anyone and so you are being gifted with the most special kind of pain and hurts from this world so don’t make God’s decision wrong , don’t break his trust, give a Damn to this world and face the situation !!

a nice quote u must have read somewhere :

If God answers to your prayer… he is increasing your faith !!

If he delays.. he is increasing your patience !!

But if he doesn’t answers  to your prayer .. he knows well you can handle it to your own !! 

keep smiling !!

keep Rocking !!

p.s i am not sad.. but just a bit confused about some relationships !!

Move on !!

 
It’s one of the toughest thing to  do, to move away from a relationship which wasn’t even working. It takes lots of time to believe that yeah I was cheated by him/her, we keep on cursing, hating everything around us which remind us about them...but we can't do anything except "accepting it" !!

·        ##  Accept that there's nothing we can do to change the past : how hard we try, whatever we do, we can’t change the past doesn’t matter we were so good, loving, caring .

·       ##   Learn to forgive yourself for your own mistakes:  we always keep cursing ourselves for something we did, for some we didn’t . Learn to forgive your mistakes as now nothing can be done !!

·        ## Be aware of your thoughts :  just sit and think once it’s really only you who got hurt?  Because the person next to you might be going through the same pain.

·      ##  Trust the nature of time : time is great healer, it always heal our pain . Just have some patience you will be healed n move on !!

·        ##  Never be late in saying sorry : ya a sorry don’t heal someone’s pain but can comfort and just give satisfaction to you and you might forgive yourself . Apologize and ask forgiveness if you need to.

·        ##  Make new connections with people.: You don't necessarily have to make a whole new set of friends; you can initiate a new type of friendship .  some new relationship .

·       ##  Seek balance in your conversations: Let go of the emotions and feelings of painful memories. ya its fine you are so sad and low but no one wants to with someone who live in his/her own world either happy or sad, just take some interest in their lives too.

·        ## Explore a new world : start something new. Paint, write, draw , read, do something which you love to do. Move out of your comfort zone.

·          When you're letting go of an ex-partner, you should seriously consider whether it's wise to spend time together -- or if you should let go altogether. Maybe you're still in love, or were abused, and have confused thoughts and feelings. Take a break , ask yourself twice and then decide.                                                                                                                                                                      

     p.s  keep smiling :)



 

Just a thought # 6

Sitting in the room.. all alone...feeling so alone and bored ..
tried almost everything to cheer myself...
Music..talk on phone.. tried to study again but not able to do so..

*Login to facebook*.
just a silly comment by one of my online friend made me laugh some more comments cheered up...
n i am happy again.. feeling so light.. smiling again :D
   

p.s we don't need great plans to make our life happy but just a small n sweet approach can make life worth living :)
keep smiling :D

last page of my diary !!

Hostel life was gifted to me by my parents at my 15th b'day... With some fear, some curiosity, n some excitement i left my home and entered a new world, which was not familiar with me. There were so many girls like me just the difference was some were extremely happy in being there.. some were less.

 Many times i saw myself in every sad girl who wanted to go back to her home I had never ever cheered up or consoled anyone who was suffering from “homesickness”  but shared my tears with her.

I learned so many things there, as I loved to do group studies, sharing happiness n pain, some with all my heart some with less as I didn’t wanted to share or compromise.. Yet did as per hostel rules.

I don't know how time flew away.. I kept changing roommates as shifted to other city for further studies , new hostel, new roommates,  but something was still constant -Me, My hostel life and my visit to home at vacations only.

In between all this I never cared when my loyalty shifted from home to hostel life, I find myself more comfortable with my roommates then relatives. Now I love everything about hostel except the bad food ;) .

In the starting few years I wanted to return my home, but now all this become an important part of my life.

Today I got the (good) news.. “I have to return back to my home” .. as I completed my course and will have to wait for results for few  days or may be months at home only.

I want to go back home but don’t want to leave my so special people of my life with whom I had shared so beautiful moments in this hostel. I want to be with my parents but I want to return back to my friends after the vacations. But all this is not possible now. Today at the age of 21 , m standing at  the end of “ most beautiful   days of my life”  which will never come back again!!

  at last I just want to say :

“Meeting is pleasure

Separation is pain..

But the earth is round

So we will meet again"!!

p.s Hostel life Rocks!!  :)

Moments… part of life!!

some truly lovable moments of our life : 

Trying hard to find the cell phone when it’s in silent mode..

A random day dream and then realizing that we were staring at someone by mistake..

Having some text on mobile that you never want to delete.

Restarting the song when you miss your most favorite line.

Staring into the wardrobe of cloths and finding nothing good to wear.

When your tears replace your words.

Everything else becoming so important when its exam time .

Before starting any chapter, counting the number of pages.

Enjoying the moment when someone interrupts the class for any important announcement.

Shouting “irrrrr” when its 10 minutes before break and teacher wants to start any new topic.

Suddenly wake up at night and realize you still have to wait hours for the morning.

Trying hard to convince someone and finally realize he was also telling the same thing .

Random smile about any old memory and forgot for what you was tensed do long.

When parents keep calling , pretending to tell “I am coming”, but move only after they shout.

Don’t you think so…. life is better when we decide we don’t care whatever strange happens !!
Keep smiling !!
keep rocking !!



 

love vs friendship

every story has an ending either good or bad.. simple or rocking , happy or sad !!
so i decided to complete my story which i had written long back 

                    

once upon a time !!

.

They were getting apart tomorrow but she was still not able to share an important part of her life, was she afraid of losing him? No its not true they are friends  he will definitely understand her feelings but what if he will misunderstood her , what if he like her and expects same .. many thoughts were coming in her mind, just one night before they were sitting on roof , after some silly, stupid and useless talks he approached her : hey I got something important to tell you, please don’t take me wrong.

ya carry on  (replied in lower voice as she was scared as well amazed  at the same time what if he had feelings for me .. I should have told everything before.. )

he continued : I don’t know what attracts me to you, your simplicity, your smile, your pain or just the feeling of insecurity  as I am getting more n more attracted towards u , because I don’t want to imagine my life without you, I am addicted to you, your silly talks.  I had tried many times to ask what is bothering you, why you are sad but failed to do so hope I am not the reason behind it.

Your presence makes me feel comfortable. We had shared every little bit of life with each other and I really wish if we could life together forever and ever. But I am confused as I think its not love,  ya I loved you a lot in all these years even I am not sure if that was love or just a connection between us , a bond , a relationship which kept me connected with you with the threads of our childhood memories, I waited for this day so long and when today you are here I am not able to define my wait for you . I had always remembered you as my best friend, don’t know why but I never felt anything different for you.

Please help me out I don’t know what’s going on at your end. What you think about me, will wait for you as I did so long..you can answer now or can think about it but please reply me till morning . I will leave in the morning .

(There was a complete silence for few minutes)

Then he left wishing her “good night”.

Good night (she tried to reply with a smile)

She was lying on the bed overwhelmed with his words , he had told everything so simply n honestly, kept on thinking till felled asleep.

( it was morning he was leaving from there )

She was standing in front of her, he was going .. they were getting apart all over again. he came near to her for a goodbye …. She hugged him and burst out in tears   “Why didn’t you told me all these things earlier?  I wasn’t hiding my feelings from you but there was something else which was not so important then us so didn’t shared.  I love you a lot, want you to be in my life always as my best friend as like the same we were before.. . I can’t afford to lose you don’t you dare to go away .  yes it’s not love it’s a relationship more special then love which is called as “friendship” .

He didn’t utter a single word just smiled as he got the meaning of their relationship and they again promised to be best friends forever and ever !!

 

p.s. let me know whether i succeed to give it a nice ending or not :) :)

ohh i just realised ..contd.

• If u can't repair your breaks..then make your horn louder !!

• Never argue with a fool, people might not know the difference. ;)

• If you can't convince someone.. you have other options also as : confuse them. :D

• When your dreams turn to dust.. its time to vaccum. :)

• Always remember that you are absolutely unique

                                                                               "just like everyone else" .

• Don't try to be so open minded that your brain falls out !!

• we should Throw away any hatred for anyone from our heart so that we will not carry sins for a lifetime. Forgiving others is the best attitude to take!!

•  Never change your originality for the sake of others, because no one can play your role better than you.

                             So be yourself, because whatever you are, YOU are the best.




 keep smiling :) :)

 

A new world !!

She was from a small town, got admission in a college at metro city. For her it was a complete different and new culture, environment , the way of talking, dressing style everything.

on the other side she was extremely shy and simple girl so tried hard to be like people around her, but always failed to do so . because everything was different between them. One day while working in lab she was introduced to a new world : which changed her for forever.. which was so different from the world she was living from childhood.

It was “the virtual world”
After some instructions and suggestions she stepped in it, it was all new to her so she was much curious about it. At initially she had some friends over there but getting influenced by others she wanted more and more friends , she wanted to become popular in a short span of time.

Time passed, and she got much involved with all this, loved to spend whole day with chatting, social networking sites and so on as being addicted to them she couldn’t tried to imagine her life without all of them. Now she was popular, she always loved to see so many scraps and messages waiting for her, till she faced some worse situations by getting some non-sense written in them , she tried to ignore them but her every time she get them she got hurt. It was quite unexpected many thoughts like: why I am getting hurt by all those, these are cool.. people over here talk in the same manner now I am like them … was going on in her mind.

One day while chatting with a girl named siya ..
She: hi
Siya : hello :)
After some conversation she come up with :
She: why you had so few friends in your friend list? Don’t you want to be popular or don’t you want more friends?
Siya : no. I prefer being stranger for the world rather getting any cheap popularity.
Ok I am having classes so I will leave now.
Bbye and take care :)
She didn’t utter a single word just replied bye.

After siya got offline she was lying on her bed and thinking.. the girl was right? I was more happy when I was unknown, being confused with lots of questions for her own she switched the computer on , sign in to her account again and now she was so clear with the things she was going to do. She deleted some friends who were just show piece of her friend list as well some friends she didn’t liked but kept them to feel proud by having such a huge friends in the list, now was actually feeling refreshed.

Now she became much choosy with the friends and any contact made online, then realized this world was also filled with so many better people to do friendship. It took some time but now she was really blessed with some Good friends who care for her, showed believe in her for her studies, for her look, encouraged her to do something good ,for whom she was always welcomed to share anything any feeling, her happiness, sadness, some who annoy her just to cheer her up and she turned out to be a brilliant student, a nice friend all over again and above all she met with herself “who was better then so many people of the both world” and now popularity wasn’t any issue for her , she was happy in being less-popular !! everything was so perfect now her friendship, studies as well she wasn’t alone anymore and now she loved to be in this virtual world !!



“ sometimes we are unknown with our demands from the life.. we become so confused what we want and when we got results, we come up with "we never wished for this to happen" !! “

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ohh i just realised !!

** sometimes Its okay to feel sad if you have enough reasons for the same !!

** u cnt expect things will always go according to your wish !!

** anyone can help you !! may be some unexpected person can surprise u with the most
acceptable thing which sud hav been done to solve your problem !!

** sometimes words heal the pain faster then medicines !!

** you can't be always right or even wrong.. so accept it without any re-grates !!

** silence don't help always !!

** your hurts and sadness let you know that "God isn't partial in giving pain and
sorrows only a bit choosy at times !!

** you can't come out of every pain by just telling "part of life"
sometimes more positive attitude is required !!

** the more you will think more you will get confused !!

**everyone is special in their own way but
sometimes you will be more comfortable in casual then being special !!

** its never too late for these words:
i' m sorry !!
thank you !!
will you plz help me??

** don't hesitate ever to disturb, or even annoy your friends if you need them otherwise it may hurt them afterward :P !!

** always forgive your enemies nothing will annoy them much!!


p.s you may don't get :( .. sad smiles back but you will always get " :P " as well *poke* (on fb)
back while chatting !! :P keep smiling :)

once upon a time !!

He and she was childhood friend and met after almost 10 years in a family function.
They had so many things so share, to ask, to inform, and to complain and lots more but didn’t even know from where to start.

She always found him staring at her throughout the function. She loved each and every prank he done with her, talking, laughing, late night sms exchange while everyone sleep yet he sleep to the next room: P.

For her he was : “ I had a crush and you will have to listen – friend, He was her fix-it- friend, her I’d had such a hard day please listen to it- friend, I’m so hungry come eat with me- friend, two eyes always staring at her: friend, which earrings look best with this dress- friend. . A friend who never told her “ohh you are looking awesome in this dress but always teasing her like “what’s wrong with your hairs”? “Tu itni bhi buri nai dikhti yaar “n it doesn’t matter whatever color you will be dressed in you will look same she always took all this as compliment as there was no other way: D “

Everything was so perfect from their childhood only when they promised to marry each other at the age of just 9-10. But now it was just an unforgettable reason to blush when someone remind her about it in front of him ..

She wished to tell him thanks for being so special for her... for being a great listener, and friend she tried many times to tell him about her love but something was stopping her from doing so. while all growing years he waited for her but didn’t knew how she met with “dream boy” of her life, fallen in love, got cheated so badly and left with the fact of her life “love always hurts”...

p.s thus a story which was started once upon a time with their friendship was getting new wings of dream
With the same care, affection and love.. love?? well this was yet to be discovered :)

... to be contd.

why??

why always before getting a loan first we need to prove we don't need it at all?

I can never find determine which side of the bread to butter, but if it falls down
, it always land on the buttered side..

why mom's first choice is "no" while replying to any of my question .

As soon we mention something?? if confused with good or bad... bad happens :(

If you are early, the bus is late.. if you are late the bus is still late :P

whenever we are in a queue, the other line always moves faster..

If we bunked the class , the professor has taken attendance..

why we pick up max wrong no while in roaming ??

The door bell and mobile.. always ring when we are in bathroom ??

If you are having exams tomorrow , there will be power cut tonight !

Irrespective of the direction of the wind, the smoke from the cigarette always tend to go to the non-smoker

once we have bought something , find the same item being sold somewhere else at a cheaper rate.. !!!!

before sadness fills ur heart n u forgot to laugh !!

Did you ever saw some people laughing about nothing in the park? or anywhere?
I always wonder why they pretend to be so happy if they r nt. why they prefer this artificial laugh over natural one..
just becoz they don't have time for natural one or wat??i really feel about their sadness which filled their heart so completely so that
they have to go for exersises like this..but they are helpless as
"One day a guy saw his wife washing cloths by hand he felt bad about it
and to save her 1/2 hour, next day bought a washing machine which didn't come alone
but with EMI schemes.. resulting in few more hours at office doing overtime for them,
few days later they planned to buy a new flat screen tv
ohh it wsnt dat much tough to afford for them so again one more EmI
n few more hours overtime..some things changed acc to time some acc to need but some just becoz their neighbours have it.
everytime the same story new things resulting burden of new EMI schemes!!
Sometimes they regrate about their child that they were nt able to
give enough time. He seems so dull nowdays neither shows intrest in playing or anything.
so they come up with lots of toys, chocklates n more to cheer him up which resulting in increasing demand day by day from the child.
they looks so perfect having a big flat, a big car then others. and they look so happy family from outside."


few years rolled down and they missed a real life somewhere...

FORGET TO SMILE??
ohh They have to gO park EVERYDAY where many like them are
laughing at loud just about nothing but its the requirement of life(mgt be fake still its required) n to relax themselves so
they are laughing, no happiness is inside them, rather havin a hollow heart inside which don't care about anyone.
did nt even remember when last time they smiled form heart, saw the moon, the b'ful stars
as they are unable to see frm their balcony,
want to spend time with family but they cant why??
u forget abt d hunger of more and more luxery which comes from money and to fullfill all dreams more and more hours overtime done at office
they do'nt have time to be happy, at home they will again be sad by seeing some old furnitures
and start planning to change it as soon as possible.. so people run after artificial happiness but don't try to get the true meaning of happiness
which can't be buy from money..


Thank god i still remember how to smile or even laugh not at nothing but for many things :)
:D

love knows no reason...

(dis post is trying to ans d most common question asked by gals (askin abt reasons :P ))


a small conversation between a gal n guy......
gal:hey can i ask u something??
guy: yup sure.. ask..
gal: Why do you like me..? Why do you love me?
guy : wht kind of ques is dis?? I can't tell the reason.. actually no one can.. but I really like you...
gal : wat? huh u can't even tell me d reason... how can u say u like me? How can u knw u love me?
guy : I really cant define d reason , but I can prove that I love you... bt i feel love doesnt need any reason..
gal : Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend's boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you!
guy: (ohh ..plz god save me frm dis word "reason" )
Ok..ok!!! Erm...let me try...hmmm.. becoz u r beautiful, ur voice is sweet, u r so caring, u r loving, u r thoughtful,becoz of ur smile,
ur every movements...n so on.. :)
gal: ohh i love u so much n huged him (as c felt very satisfied with his answer.)



**********
********

Unfortunately, a few days later, d gal met with an accident n went into d coma stage.

d Guy den placed a letter by her side, n here is d content:
dear..

"Becoz of ur sweet voice that I love you...Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you.
Becoz of ur care and concern that I like you...Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.
Becoz of ur smile, becoz of ur every movement dat I love you...Now can you smile? Now can you move?
No, therefore, I cannot love you.
If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you anymore... dat day i ws unable to make to understand dis :(
but fr me u r still d same whom i loved..Therefore, I still love you...n will always do so.. :)

With love always,

forever urs.

*******"
we always try to found out d reason for lovin someone or being loved... but always forgets love is beyound all d reasons defined in dis world...
sometimes we start beliving fake words trying to describe it, n gt hurt or even cheated if he/ she didnt mean it all it ws just to impress us or watevr..
as well sometimes we prefer words more den feelings..we mgt need reasons to like sm1 bt nvr fr loving any1....
Its just feeling can't describd. many ppl written poems, stories even books but d reason of love is yet to be discovered.. :)

dreams.. :) :)

d dreams .... dreams... n dreams....
d dreams black n white
some of dem which never kept quite
dreams of love as well of colours
dreams to be happy to bloom like flower
sometimes make me free to fly n fly
others like little birds.. to touch d sky
dreams to get rid of pain and sorrow
dreams for me to hav a b'ful tomorrow.. :)