Friday, February 19, 2010

smwhr smone is waitin fr u....

IN ma classroom der were really sm brainees ..so tensed abt d exams as it ws d last class of 3rd sam ,n some really cool heads still crackin jokes n enjoying d last class too
as fr thm still 2 days left to study.. well i fall in 2nd category.. :)
i ws just enjoying n laughing yet one of ma frnd (priya) come to me n asked to talk to me..i ws sure c wsnt fond of askin question related to studies...so its okk..
ye tell me whts d prob??
c started: deepa, u knw ma mom is in hospital frm last few days,n c want to meet u.... can u manage to come??
i ws a bit surprised y c wann meet me der mgt b lots of relatives around her.. i heard once dat c is sufering frm blood cancer frm last 2yrs n nw in final stage..
priya realised ma confusion so c continued.. dnt worry i had shared many things abt u wh her..its a bit strange but c enjoy talkin abt u..c laughs at ur jokes,likes ur attitude abt life
n blah blah...
hey its okk i got it but u knw we r havin exams frm day aftr tommrw, so i will come aftr exams is it f9??(it ws d perfect excuse dat time i cud had made)
as u all knw whether u study or not but we can't rome outside on d previus day of exam..
c nodded her head as c agreed n went off wth... whenevr u b free give me a call i will provide u d infrmation as d ward no. and all..
and me again joined ma group as i had missed many of der jokes..
it ws d day of my exams i was puzzled as didn't slept d whole ngt, (why at d last moment we wonder of getting some more time for preparation huh !).
all of sudden ma mobile beeps.. its text msg !! it must be a gud luck msg fr exams which i ws needed vry badly..
ohh its priya.. and d msg was like dis..
" my maa is no more, baat karne ka man v nahi hai aur himmat v nai ,all d best fr ur exams... !!"
i was socked.. wat ws dis ?? i read that msg twice n thrice ya it ws true.. i call her n come to knw c passed away last evening and her last words was
"deepa nahi aayi?? ohh c is a kid na toh hw cud c come alone?? my voice was chocked, i didnt spoke a word.. i cried a lot for sm1 whom i didnt ever met !!
I went fr exams with my red eyes filled wth tears ....i realised the meaning of pain. Pain is personal. It really belongs to the one feeling it. Probably the only thing that is your own.
I have mine... I did well in exams... hav gt answers of many things in ma life but dat question is still in ma mind.. y c ws waiting for me??????

8 comments:

bibhash jha said...

so sad :( .

saurabh..... said...

tumne mujhe ye kabhi bataya nai ... it's really shoking....

shivam said...

Hmm..i was goin thru ur blog n i found it to b quite gud..nice work.. Keep blogging

NIRAJ KUMAR said...

ur writing is too impressive,
nice dearr..!!!
it is a good way to explore our feelings...
keep it

deepa kashyap said...

@ NIRAJ & shivam... thanx :)

Abhi said...

Heart touching! But I'm confused... why did u make an excuse not to meet her? You could have made it

deepa kashyap said...

@abhi
ohh i still feel so bad while rem dos days :(
its one of biggest mistake of ma life which i ws nt able to fix as its too late till i realised..

Abhi said...

hey i feel this is how we learn about life.. they say na.. tomorrow never come... if u love someone speak up.. u may never get a chance say it ever again...

dont worry.. its Life.. chillaxe!!

listen to ur heart....