All i need is.. You !!

Let the words remain unsaid…..

Let the feelings remain unshared…..

Let the dreams remain unseen…..

Let the prayers remain unfulfilled…..

Let the tears remain unnoticed……

Let me remain imperfect…..

No I don’t have anything to share, to ask or to complain about…

All I need now is YOU from the crowd around me…

 Don’t pretend to know me..

When I even don’t know.. where I am…
 

Just sit beside me.. and make me feel

You are there …forever.. and ever for me…….


 

p.s happiieeeee diwali :) :) 

Thoughts become things.. choose the Good ones !!

There is so much suffering and pain in this world, we always think about OUR pain, suffering, hurts,  heart breaks and  keeps on complaining to God why he had given so much pain to me only.

 Why don’t we ever care about others how they feel, how much they suffered in life, how this world made their life a complete mess.
 

I had always believed God sees everything and he knows your limitations of suffering the pain, he never ever gives you more than that, he  is so particular with the amount .  No one can play your role better than you and that might be the reason.. u can handle the given situation more nicely then anyone and so you are being gifted with the most special kind of pain and hurts from this world so don’t make God’s decision wrong , don’t break his trust, give a Damn to this world and face the situation !!

a nice quote u must have read somewhere :

If God answers to your prayer… he is increasing your faith !!

If he delays.. he is increasing your patience !!

But if he doesn’t answers  to your prayer .. he knows well you can handle it to your own !! 

keep smiling !!

keep Rocking !!

p.s i am not sad.. but just a bit confused about some relationships !!

yyuuppiiieeee :D

Is this virtual world fake?
I will say Not always !!
Yeah I love almost everything about it, got some nice friends, some totally fake people, some arrogant, as well some who were truly a nightmare to me.
But still as we say “its life” when something doesn’t happen according to our wish, I say “it’s part of this virtual life” !!
Just few days back one of my friend told me “you are more of a facebooker then a blogger now” :P
Yeah how true, I spend some very b’ful moments on these social networking sites, some happiness, some tears still I love to be a part of it!!

Ohh me n my never ending talk… sometimes distract me from the topic . :P
Don’t worry I am not going to talk about some topic or even lesson , this is my 50th post :D :D
Yuppieeeee !!!! oops sorry :P but I am excited , some silly, some stupid, some life experience, some fiction collectively made it 50 !! just a cute heart saying :a big thanks to all :)

some very important, and special persons of my “blogging world” :D
Here they are :

Mridul : due to whom I come in blogging world !! thanks for leaving me alone so that I could know some realities of this world !!

Bibhash : how strange :O we are not friends any more , some friendship-love confusions , misunderstandings n blah blah but I am sure we will be together again !! thanks for being so special friend, I had always loved to solve your silly problems related to life !!

Sourav : there was time when I had plans to quit blogging , due to some criticism.. some puzzled life problems..but he was there to cheer me up, inspired me for writing ,as well pointing out my grammatical mistakes. Thanks a lot dude, for everything..i always admire you and your way of writing , (p.s. u are much busy now days :P)

Madhu : the most special person of my blogging world, love you lots sweety, sometimes I wonder how you write so simple and mind blowing posts which always make me to agree with you. Thanks a lot !!p.. s will mail you soon , still busy:(

Nipun : cool blogger !! love the simplicity and depth of your posts !! thanks !!

Rahil: I still wonder how you assemble so many points for a same topic :P thanks !!

Pankul : so dedicated for his blog, special way of expressing and deciding the topics !! thanks !!

Nethra : we are sailing on the same boat (hope you remember) still I love the way you handle yourself!! i always end up in liking whatever u write !! thanks !!

Romeo : love ur way of expression in the posts !! thanks !!

Urvashi : simple yet rocking !! thanks !!

Chandrika: short , simple but know how to play with words !! thanks !!

choco lover : extremely cute blogger :) love your sweet poems!! thanks !!

and thanks to ALL those who have read, commented ,inspired, criticized LISTEN TO YOUR HEART..!!! and made me believe I can write or at least try to pen down my feelings and my posts always wait for your comments!! !!

love u all !!

keep smiling !!

keep rocking !!

p.s let me know what you think about my blog as ur comment !!
sorry if I had missed any name !!



 

Tagged !!

Thanks NIPUN and URVASHI for the tag :)


10 How's

1. How did you get one of your scars?        one of my friend pushed me from stairs :P

2. How did you celebrate your last birthday?      Movie+lunch with friends, cut the cake with family ,it was awesome ;)
3. How are you feeling at this moment?     Happyyy (as usual :D )
4. How did your night go last night?    Full of dreams :D

5. How did you do in high school?    I was topper of my school

6. How did you get the shirt you’re wearing ?   shopped it specially.. as i love red ;)

7. How often do you see your best friend(s)?   daily ;) !!


8. How much money did you spend last month?   Ask my papa :P

9. How old do you want to be when you get married?     25+
10. How old will you be at your next birthday?     22



Nine what’s:

1. Your mothers name?  mummy, maa :)

2. What did you do last weekend?  watched movie with friends+lunch+ some shopping !!
3. What is the most important part of your life?  everything including you my blogger friends !

4. What would you rather be doing?  studies (no choices left  :P)

5. What did you last cry over?   last night !!

6. What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?   Music and some stupid friends !!

7. What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?   Trust and compatibility !!

8. What are you worried about?   sudden changing behavior of some friends !!

9. What did you have for breakfast?   tea+biscuits (as i was running late for classes :(  )



Eight you’s:

1. Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?   yup :D

2. Have you ever had your heartbroken?    yes many times ;)
3. Have you ever been out of the country?    nopes !!

4. Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?    yea yea !!

5. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?    ya ! many times ! :D

6. Have you ever had sex on the beach?    Nopes !!

7. Have you ever dated someone younger than you?   Naah !!

8. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?    Ya.. most of times !!



Seven who’s:

1. Who was the last person you saw?        my khadoos neighbor  :|

2. Who was the last person you texted?           Rahul bhaiya :) 
3. Who was the last person you hung out with?     A friend !!

4. Who was the last person to call you?     Blank call :P

5. Who did you last hug?         Shreya (a friend , she was so sad ) !!

6. Who is the last person who texted you?        chandan (a friend)
7. Who was the last person you said “I love you” to?        srk :D :D


Six where’s:

1. Where does your best friend(s) live?       in my mirror :)

2. Where did you last go?    Library (extremely boring )

3. Where did you last hang out?   tea stall near my coaching :P

4. Where do you go to school?        Giridih

5. Where is your favorite place to be?        HOME :)

6. Where did you sleep last night?       on my bed :D


Five do’s:

1. Do you think anyone likes you?    Ya everyone do , or may be no-one !!
2. Do you ever wish you were someone else?        No I love myself

3. Do you know the muffin man?    :O

4. Does the future scare you?        Yes.. always !!

5. Do your parents know about your blog?       Yes, they do !!
Four why’s:

1. Why are you best friends with your best friend?        Eehhhhh…. Next plz (this tag should be named as best friends tag) !!
2. Why did you get into Blogging?       i was suggested by a friend !!

3. Why did your parents give you the name you have?        Mom’s choice B-)
4. Why are you doing this survey?         studies break and nothing interesting to do :P

Three if’s:

1. If you could have one super power what would it be?         tab toh Dunia hila denge hum :P

2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?          Never :)

3. If you were stranded on a deserted island and could bring 1 thing, what would you bring ?   returning ticket :/


Two would-you-ever’s:

1. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?        Yup.. to dump them back :D
2. Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?          Naah !!
One last question:

1. Are you happy with your life right now?       Yuuppieee…. I am always happy* see my teethes :D :D

                                                             *conditions apply !!

keep smiling :)
keep Rocking !!


 

Move on !!

 
It’s one of the toughest thing to  do, to move away from a relationship which wasn’t even working. It takes lots of time to believe that yeah I was cheated by him/her, we keep on cursing, hating everything around us which remind us about them...but we can't do anything except "accepting it" !!

·        ##  Accept that there's nothing we can do to change the past : how hard we try, whatever we do, we can’t change the past doesn’t matter we were so good, loving, caring .

·       ##   Learn to forgive yourself for your own mistakes:  we always keep cursing ourselves for something we did, for some we didn’t . Learn to forgive your mistakes as now nothing can be done !!

·        ## Be aware of your thoughts :  just sit and think once it’s really only you who got hurt?  Because the person next to you might be going through the same pain.

·      ##  Trust the nature of time : time is great healer, it always heal our pain . Just have some patience you will be healed n move on !!

·        ##  Never be late in saying sorry : ya a sorry don’t heal someone’s pain but can comfort and just give satisfaction to you and you might forgive yourself . Apologize and ask forgiveness if you need to.

·        ##  Make new connections with people.: You don't necessarily have to make a whole new set of friends; you can initiate a new type of friendship .  some new relationship .

·       ##  Seek balance in your conversations: Let go of the emotions and feelings of painful memories. ya its fine you are so sad and low but no one wants to with someone who live in his/her own world either happy or sad, just take some interest in their lives too.

·        ## Explore a new world : start something new. Paint, write, draw , read, do something which you love to do. Move out of your comfort zone.

·          When you're letting go of an ex-partner, you should seriously consider whether it's wise to spend time together -- or if you should let go altogether. Maybe you're still in love, or were abused, and have confused thoughts and feelings. Take a break , ask yourself twice and then decide.                                                                                                                                                                      

     p.s  keep smiling :)



 

Just a thought # 6

Sitting in the room.. all alone...feeling so alone and bored ..
tried almost everything to cheer myself...
Music..talk on phone.. tried to study again but not able to do so..

*Login to facebook*.
just a silly comment by one of my online friend made me laugh some more comments cheered up...
n i am happy again.. feeling so light.. smiling again :D
   

p.s we don't need great plans to make our life happy but just a small n sweet approach can make life worth living :)
keep smiling :D

last page of my diary !!

Hostel life was gifted to me by my parents at my 15th b'day... With some fear, some curiosity, n some excitement i left my home and entered a new world, which was not familiar with me. There were so many girls like me just the difference was some were extremely happy in being there.. some were less.

 Many times i saw myself in every sad girl who wanted to go back to her home I had never ever cheered up or consoled anyone who was suffering from “homesickness”  but shared my tears with her.

I learned so many things there, as I loved to do group studies, sharing happiness n pain, some with all my heart some with less as I didn’t wanted to share or compromise.. Yet did as per hostel rules.

I don't know how time flew away.. I kept changing roommates as shifted to other city for further studies , new hostel, new roommates,  but something was still constant -Me, My hostel life and my visit to home at vacations only.

In between all this I never cared when my loyalty shifted from home to hostel life, I find myself more comfortable with my roommates then relatives. Now I love everything about hostel except the bad food ;) .

In the starting few years I wanted to return my home, but now all this become an important part of my life.

Today I got the (good) news.. “I have to return back to my home” .. as I completed my course and will have to wait for results for few  days or may be months at home only.

I want to go back home but don’t want to leave my so special people of my life with whom I had shared so beautiful moments in this hostel. I want to be with my parents but I want to return back to my friends after the vacations. But all this is not possible now. Today at the age of 21 , m standing at  the end of “ most beautiful   days of my life”  which will never come back again!!

  at last I just want to say :

“Meeting is pleasure

Separation is pain..

But the earth is round

So we will meet again"!!

p.s Hostel life Rocks!!  :)

Moments… part of life!!

some truly lovable moments of our life : 

Trying hard to find the cell phone when it’s in silent mode..

A random day dream and then realizing that we were staring at someone by mistake..

Having some text on mobile that you never want to delete.

Restarting the song when you miss your most favorite line.

Staring into the wardrobe of cloths and finding nothing good to wear.

When your tears replace your words.

Everything else becoming so important when its exam time .

Before starting any chapter, counting the number of pages.

Enjoying the moment when someone interrupts the class for any important announcement.

Shouting “irrrrr” when its 10 minutes before break and teacher wants to start any new topic.

Suddenly wake up at night and realize you still have to wait hours for the morning.

Trying hard to convince someone and finally realize he was also telling the same thing .

Random smile about any old memory and forgot for what you was tensed do long.

When parents keep calling , pretending to tell “I am coming”, but move only after they shout.

Don’t you think so…. life is better when we decide we don’t care whatever strange happens !!
Keep smiling !!
keep rocking !!



 

love vs friendship

every story has an ending either good or bad.. simple or rocking , happy or sad !!
so i decided to complete my story which i had written long back 

                    

once upon a time !!

.

They were getting apart tomorrow but she was still not able to share an important part of her life, was she afraid of losing him? No its not true they are friends  he will definitely understand her feelings but what if he will misunderstood her , what if he like her and expects same .. many thoughts were coming in her mind, just one night before they were sitting on roof , after some silly, stupid and useless talks he approached her : hey I got something important to tell you, please don’t take me wrong.

ya carry on  (replied in lower voice as she was scared as well amazed  at the same time what if he had feelings for me .. I should have told everything before.. )

he continued : I don’t know what attracts me to you, your simplicity, your smile, your pain or just the feeling of insecurity  as I am getting more n more attracted towards u , because I don’t want to imagine my life without you, I am addicted to you, your silly talks.  I had tried many times to ask what is bothering you, why you are sad but failed to do so hope I am not the reason behind it.

Your presence makes me feel comfortable. We had shared every little bit of life with each other and I really wish if we could life together forever and ever. But I am confused as I think its not love,  ya I loved you a lot in all these years even I am not sure if that was love or just a connection between us , a bond , a relationship which kept me connected with you with the threads of our childhood memories, I waited for this day so long and when today you are here I am not able to define my wait for you . I had always remembered you as my best friend, don’t know why but I never felt anything different for you.

Please help me out I don’t know what’s going on at your end. What you think about me, will wait for you as I did so long..you can answer now or can think about it but please reply me till morning . I will leave in the morning .

(There was a complete silence for few minutes)

Then he left wishing her “good night”.

Good night (she tried to reply with a smile)

She was lying on the bed overwhelmed with his words , he had told everything so simply n honestly, kept on thinking till felled asleep.

( it was morning he was leaving from there )

She was standing in front of her, he was going .. they were getting apart all over again. he came near to her for a goodbye …. She hugged him and burst out in tears   “Why didn’t you told me all these things earlier?  I wasn’t hiding my feelings from you but there was something else which was not so important then us so didn’t shared.  I love you a lot, want you to be in my life always as my best friend as like the same we were before.. . I can’t afford to lose you don’t you dare to go away .  yes it’s not love it’s a relationship more special then love which is called as “friendship” .

He didn’t utter a single word just smiled as he got the meaning of their relationship and they again promised to be best friends forever and ever !!

 

p.s. let me know whether i succeed to give it a nice ending or not :) :)

ohh i just realised ..contd.

• If u can't repair your breaks..then make your horn louder !!

• Never argue with a fool, people might not know the difference. ;)

• If you can't convince someone.. you have other options also as : confuse them. :D

• When your dreams turn to dust.. its time to vaccum. :)

• Always remember that you are absolutely unique

                                                                               "just like everyone else" .

• Don't try to be so open minded that your brain falls out !!

• we should Throw away any hatred for anyone from our heart so that we will not carry sins for a lifetime. Forgiving others is the best attitude to take!!

•  Never change your originality for the sake of others, because no one can play your role better than you.

                             So be yourself, because whatever you are, YOU are the best.




 keep smiling :) :)

 

A new world !!

She was from a small town, got admission in a college at metro city. For her it was a complete different and new culture, environment , the way of talking, dressing style everything.

on the other side she was extremely shy and simple girl so tried hard to be like people around her, but always failed to do so . because everything was different between them. One day while working in lab she was introduced to a new world : which changed her for forever.. which was so different from the world she was living from childhood.

It was “the virtual world”
After some instructions and suggestions she stepped in it, it was all new to her so she was much curious about it. At initially she had some friends over there but getting influenced by others she wanted more and more friends , she wanted to become popular in a short span of time.

Time passed, and she got much involved with all this, loved to spend whole day with chatting, social networking sites and so on as being addicted to them she couldn’t tried to imagine her life without all of them. Now she was popular, she always loved to see so many scraps and messages waiting for her, till she faced some worse situations by getting some non-sense written in them , she tried to ignore them but her every time she get them she got hurt. It was quite unexpected many thoughts like: why I am getting hurt by all those, these are cool.. people over here talk in the same manner now I am like them … was going on in her mind.

One day while chatting with a girl named siya ..
She: hi
Siya : hello :)
After some conversation she come up with :
She: why you had so few friends in your friend list? Don’t you want to be popular or don’t you want more friends?
Siya : no. I prefer being stranger for the world rather getting any cheap popularity.
Ok I am having classes so I will leave now.
Bbye and take care :)
She didn’t utter a single word just replied bye.

After siya got offline she was lying on her bed and thinking.. the girl was right? I was more happy when I was unknown, being confused with lots of questions for her own she switched the computer on , sign in to her account again and now she was so clear with the things she was going to do. She deleted some friends who were just show piece of her friend list as well some friends she didn’t liked but kept them to feel proud by having such a huge friends in the list, now was actually feeling refreshed.

Now she became much choosy with the friends and any contact made online, then realized this world was also filled with so many better people to do friendship. It took some time but now she was really blessed with some Good friends who care for her, showed believe in her for her studies, for her look, encouraged her to do something good ,for whom she was always welcomed to share anything any feeling, her happiness, sadness, some who annoy her just to cheer her up and she turned out to be a brilliant student, a nice friend all over again and above all she met with herself “who was better then so many people of the both world” and now popularity wasn’t any issue for her , she was happy in being less-popular !! everything was so perfect now her friendship, studies as well she wasn’t alone anymore and now she loved to be in this virtual world !!



“ sometimes we are unknown with our demands from the life.. we become so confused what we want and when we got results, we come up with "we never wished for this to happen" !! “

I am participating in the WeBlog's Sleepy Sunday contest! You may read other participating posts
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3 defining me !!

Thanks NIPUN for another tag :)

here it goes :)

* 3 Famous Names of Mine:

Deepa
Dips
deepiii (rather its not famous it was given by one of my best friend)

* 3 Things that Scare Me:

falling again for someone and got hurt :(
Rejection :(
Ghosts and all their relatives like vampires n all :P

* 3 Things that make me Smile:

roses (i love flowers)
being with someone i like(family, friends...)
my favorite music :)

* 3 Things that I Love:

ma lappy +net conn
My virtual world
rain... (well i love almost everything around me :) )

* 3 Things that I Hate:

fake attitude
Arrogance
someone trying to impress me (i wonder if i sud go n ask don’t try hard i m already impressed :P )

* 3 Things I don’t understand:

the cast system in India
why people cheat
My mood :P

* 3 Things I’m doing right now:

trying to manage ma hairs :P
thinking about the next three so writing this post
listening to mom advice on phn not to expose myself to rain as i get cold very soon :D

* 3 Things I can’t do:

Hurt my parents for anything or even for anyone :)
Can’t do buttering :P
just move with the flow rather i love to change things acc to my wish :)

* 3 Things I think you should listen to:

my sweet voice :P
your heart (as my blog title says )
A R Rahman (he is legend )

* 3 Shows I watched as a Kid:

small wonder ( i still rem the tune sheee iss smalllll wonder) :P
shaktimaan
tom jerry( i still watch it) :P

* 3 Things I want in a Relationship:

LOVE
TRUST
COMPATIBILITY

* 3 Things of the Opposite Sex that appeal to me:

height
maturity
confidence

* 3 Favorite Fictitious Characters:

Harry Potter
my dream boy :P
aladin :D

* 3 of my Favorite Hobbies:

painting (i love playing with colours on paper )
shopping (i love it)
watching cricket (only 20-20 )

* 3 Beverages I drink regularly:

bed tea :P
water (anytime )
cold coffee with some vanilla n choco ice creams :)

* 3 Things I like about myself:

my honesty
positive attitude
my love for parents and family

* 3 Things I hate about myself:

short tempered !!
my emotions !!
my wait for someone when i know he won't come back !!

* 3 Things I’m wearing right now:

few baby clips :P
short-skirt :D
striped t-shirt :D

* 2 Truths and a Lie:

i love all my friends :)
i love appreciating as well helping others !!
i am the best :P

three friends i pass this tag to :
Rahil
simple man
Sourav

so friends keep smiling :)
keep rocking :)

hmm its me :)

Firstly, NETHRA Thanks for the tag :)

(so here's the tag : to list at least ten things you have ever wanted or done which your gender is not supposed to. )

and here it goes :

** I love shopping but I am an extremely fast shopper, just hate spending hours together in malls for nothing!!

** I loved to bunk the classes in ma college days and so always end up as least attendance and paying fine from ma pocket money :(

** I hate sharing personal things with others like most girls do !!

** I think cooking is a waste of time when you do have so many options like ordering the food from outside!!

** At my home my only companion is my cousin bro for cricket as di's are much interested in ekta kapoor stuff :P

** I am extremely uncomfortable with high heels or any kind of make-ups!!

** I would prefer reading books, roaming around, painting, sleeping, teasing people, pulling legs, than visiting parlors!!

** I hardly care for dark circles around eyes, pimples and so on as I love late night studies, chatting :D!!

** I don't hate liars !! ( strange.. but true rather I enjoy their excuses made to escape from something they should not have done!! )

** I don't get angry if someone forgets my b'day rather I call them and remind to wish me for the same :)










I love to tag :

Madhu

Rahil

Bibhash

Dr. chandana

Urvashi

Nitwit

Nipun Mittal

keep rocking !!

keep smiling :) :)