two types of people.. :) :)

There are two types of people in this world :
one who knows to pass their time..
second who don't have anything to pass their time..
well i do'nt have any comments for them, who knows to pass their time... but who do'nt have any idea of time pass
are again of two types :
one who keep themselves busy in doin nothing..
and second who play antarakshi for time pass..
well i do'nt have any comments for people who keep themselves busy doin nothing but who play antarakshi are again
of two types :
one who don't take active part in the game..
and second who enjoy till d last..
well i don't have any comments for them who dont take active part n d game but who enjoy it till last are again of two types:
one who cheats when dont remember the songs..
and second who reamember all the lyrics of d songs..
well again i dont have any comments for those who cheats when didnt remember d songs but who remember d songs r again
of two types:
one who sings new songs..
and second who sings old songs..
well i dnt have any comments for those who sings new songs but those sings old songs are again of two types:
one who sings in melodius voice..
and second who sings like irritating everyone..
well i dnt have comments for those who sings n melodius voice but people who irritate others by their singing are again
of two types:
one who irritates people ocassionly..
and second who loves to irritate others..
well i dnt have any comments for any of those people let them do so by their singing becoz they dont have any other timepass
rather then irritating others n people whom they irritate dnt have any other timepass rather being irritated by them.. well now
its upto u how u pass ur time :) :)

break....up.. :(

Some songs, places..... do remind me about d old times i hav shared with ma beloved.
i often think about him... Wondering where dat person might be now,
is he missing me n all?
d more i wann to forget him
more i think abt him apart frm knowing dt he dont care at all abt yet.. keep on trying to forget him
just becoz dnt hav courage to give- up..??????
well i create ma own sorrows..
apart frm knwing he will nt rcv d call yet.. keep on trying fr max times n gt hurt. same is wth d msgs...
love to be in memories..far away frm d reality of d relationship dat nw its d time which demands me dat i sud
move ahead nw..
the most favorite paastime aftr break-up is.. wann to let d whole world knw dat i m being cheated :(...
i wann make him blv dat i m happy without u also..do lots of things to make him blv rather den
really being happy wth frnds as well wth somone who cares fr me....
apart frm knowing abt dat person.. his just one HI or HYlloo is enough to remind me all d old memories spent
with him..n again cheted n again hurt :(....
but sometimes i feel its life we keep on reminding d person most in our life who doesnt care fr our feelings.......
noone can help me just becoz i listen ma answers only...

Boys cry silent tears :(

This post is on request by one of my frnd..(hope u will like it)

His eyes were wondering all around the college bt wsnt able to find
her..probably c was absent today also.
as he came to knw frm one of her frnd dat c was havin some personal
problem so c ws attending classes
vry rarely. but it was not like this few days back...they were so
happy, sharing their happiness, crying wth each
othr in pain, always ready to help...he was even ready today to share
all her pain, solve her problems but she wsnt anymore
intrsted in sharing anything wth him, she has a group of friends to do
all dis stuff. and now she doesn't need him.
his jokes dnt make her laugh anymore as c isnt interested in
listening to them..
d memories were stiil refresh when he saw her on first day of d
college.. she was looking gorgeous in red n
black dress, a skin more shiny than gold, her looks were crisp, deep
eyes, brown hairs all were adding
serenc to her beauty..n for her he was just
a mean creature as she ws havin more admirors fr her beauty .she
looked at him once or twice
as if she ws trying to know d feeling through his eyes...
somehow he managed to introduce himself , she replied wth a sweet smile.
soon they become friends...c was happier after meeting him.and
shared her feelings wth her friends that c likes
him...
but she was reacting strangly wth him frm d past few days..may be frm d day he proposed her but she liked him
n he had cleared out d matters yet c wsnt takin to him..
"it ws his b'day when he proposed her :
guy: Listen, the thing that I am telling you should be between you and me only. I dont trust your friends. My friends know this bcoz they can be trusted, you know it.
gal: OK, fine I wont tell anybody...bol.
he took a pause 5 seconds maybe.den continued : "I love you"
gal: Ok. But I am not interested...(one of common ans u cud get frm a gal aftr being proposed )
guy: Listen, listen.... I will never bother you about this. I didnt expect an answer from you. I didnt expect a yes but I promise you I will never bring this thing up again.
I just had to say it it was killing me. I promise.
gal: OK.
She was looking down. he was teary. Maybe she couldnt look at him bcoz he would have cried. dat moment.
she left d room.......
After few days ... :
guy: Why dont you talk to me? I promised you something. We can be friends only. I have feelings for you, dont mean you need to have feelings for me too.
gal: Plz dont bother me. To hell wid your feelings. I dont care.
guy: If you cannot accept my feelings atleast dont disrespect them...
no reply....
.......................................
today he come to knw d reason of her ignorance.... some of her close frnds didnt like
him just becoz c spend more time with him rather den them.. so cant she take her decisions to her own???
cant c listen to her heart wat it was beating for (becoz c ws also in love wth d guy but never
let him know due to misunderstandings created by her frnds abt him )
well d guy wann ask her :
"" I love somebody but somebody doesnt love me, it's fine but having no
respect for true feelings, is it right?just becoz her frnds dnt like me??? Is my love, my caring, my
friendship, so small that this whole world can crush it and move on. I
guess, I have no option but to wait. Just wait for the look in her
eyes after which nothing has to be said, nothing has to be explained.
and I will wait for you."

hey frnds..

I won't b able to update ma blog for few days..
I m goin to a place havin d facilities like:
no electricity.. :(
lappy can work on battery but no net connection :(
i cnt rush to market as no markets available just small shops n which gals r nt allowed to go..
d most important thing is i can spend ma whole time wth family (as i dnt hav any othr option as cnt contact ma frnds... again network prob. :) :) )
so frnds u all enjoy i will back soon with new post...
keep blogging... :) :)

Are u listening ?? it hurts.. :(

Everyone was busy in d room, maa was busy with her friends, ma sis was busy watching her fav prog on tv n me
was trying to take intrest in their conversation (ma always complain me it looks so odd that u don't sit
with ma frnds for few min also). n i saw an old lady was sitting in one of the corner of ma room, c must
be around 70-75 yrs old, sitting on the floor, completely silent looking at us.
I asked maa.."who's she??"
maa: she is parvati's mother (well parvati is our maid)
hmm.. i was looking at her she was extrmly silent, trying to participate in our talk but after 1-2 approches
given up n sit calmly facing towards tv.none of our jokes made her laungh..not even smile also..
After few minutes parvati come up with tea n snacks as she was ordered to do so..
when she left i saw she didnt offered her mother anything neither tea nor snacks
but nobody cared at all...i asked maa abt it.
maa called parvati and asked why didnt u offered her anything? c didn't answerd den her mother was too offered with tea n snacks in a diffenent plate.. (well atleast c was being offered)
Her eyes sparkeled with joy, c took a glance of thanking n smiled as she was noticed by us....
now she was much busy enjoying d things given to her
but some of aunts didn't liked it.
dey tried to convience maa " do not give so much respect to them they will act smartly with u.."
I didnt liked their comments, i looked at d old lady as if her silent eyes were askin them:
" why cant i enjoy sitting wth u n talk,becoz m old? m poor?
why cnt i get respect which i deserve who wil make them undrstnd how i feel.. m also a human being n i gt hurt by d way they treat me.. ......n so on....
Maa replied : For us its not a big issue(snacks), but for them it do matter a lot,n why cant we show some care, love n respect to them.. sometime ppl r hungry for d respect more den food...
in d meanwhile aunts changed d topic of dissun as they didnt liked it .. n maa stopped so everyone distracted frm dat old lady..
but now she was smiling...
.I can understand d sparkel in her eyes wasnt becoz of d snacks but the respect given to her..but
we don't understand... we just ignore them by offering money or somthing to eat never show them love ,care or any sort of respect...i hope d aunts sud also had understood dis so dat d old lady sudnt go through any insult session at their home...

an innocent poverty..!!

"OMG wat a plesent surprise its gud to c u aftr a long time" i had greeted Rani di as c entered ma room
with her 5 yrs old son..
hmm tum toh aati nahi mujhe hi aana pada..followed by my srry i wsnt knwing dat u r here nowdays..
well we become busy wth our talks n her son was much busy in playing wth d toys offered to him..
After some time he came near to Di and asked..
"Maa we are poor isint it??"
we had a great laugh at his question and tried to ignore him by our laugh..
but he was so stick to his question plzz Maa tell me na we r poor??
Di: No we are not. who told you anything like this??
Subh: u know many of my friends are havin car but we dnt hav so we are poor.. don't you know yet?
Di did not answer she didnt expected an ans like this from his 5 yr old son..
He continued : but we have washing machin, vaccume cleaner, and he counted some more
things from his house and calculated total as four which were according to him sud be there at any rich family.
then he turned to us and pretending in the order if he was trying to console her mother continued in his
cute voice..
"Maa you don't worry we are havin 4 things at home more then them so we are not poor.. my friends are
poor"..and i am sad that they are poor.. :(
we had just again laughed at his conclusion which was made by him who was not knowing
the parameters set by us to consider someone rich/poor but did well as we all do to judge ppl if dey r poor or not by d things they had at home not by what they are havin in der heart for others.....
n he was again busy in playing with his toys with the same concentration and we were left with a question
Really wat's poverty ??

a new world..!!

she wants to thank the guy for cumin in her life due to whom she come to knw the reality of world....
n its a new start for her in the same world wth new dreams in her eyes...:) :)

was it over????

As c logged in found he was again missing frm her orkut frnd list..it was probably 2nd time (1st was whn c accepted d frnd requst of his frnd on orkut 2nd was d same reason bt on facebook)
so c sent a mail to him :
"hey thanx a lot for deleting me frm facebook as well orkut...dis ws smthng which i cudnt do nd it shud be done without ny regrates..
.well i deleted ma facebook account nt be,coz of ny regrates bt becoz it ws simplly disturbing me..
n i feel today i can make a nw start.. without u...:) :)
thre r lots to do n life rather dn thinkin abt myself we nvr made fr nythng neithr frndshp nor love or .. leave it..
our world r damm different.. tumko hamesa se pta tha... n once again thnx...
keep smiling always it suits u... stop being so rude.. i knw u dnt need dis advice bt yet.. ya black suits u a lot..
u dnt wann see ma face also (it ws d reply to his one of d cmmnts made fr her when c ping him last night :wat u wann nw sud i stop
cumin online due to u or sud i change ma no also huh..y dnt u leave me alone?? i cnt tolrate u on gtalk also
ur chat window havin ur pic reminds me abt d mistake i did...followed by her its ok n byye)
but i m not strong enough to let u go away frm my frndlist also.. u did.. so thnx again me too wann come out
of dis nagging relationship..n dnt worry i wont make u call ever.. its ma promise
"all d best" fr future..... frndshp(he added one of her friend on orkut), everythng............
byeeeeeeeeeeeee
:).."
c was goin thru d pain of missing him but yet c was trying to show her happiness to him n evry1 around..
just attr 8 days~~~
while workin online c gt a ping..
guy:u der?
gal:(c ws socked) yup i m.. bolo hws u?
guy:well me fine u tell me hws ur health (hey i frgt to tell u c was suffering frm typhiod vry badly)..r u ok nw?
gal : how did u cm to knw abt dis?
guy:its nt d ans..of ma question
gal: ya i m recovering well hope wil b fine vry soon
guy:hmm.. well i wann to tell u something,.plz accept me on orkut i had sent u frnd rqst again...
i wann to tell u ma feelings..
gal: hmm crry on..
guy: hey whn we chat n i met u first time on d movie date i was terribly attracted towards u..in all dis days
i was just trying to knw u n didnt let u to knw abt maself..i m havin a gf frm d last 5 yrs but c is a cheater
c is havin one more bf othr den me. n so on~~~~
u r a nice gal, gud at studies i knw u will do vry well in ur future, i had tried to love u but i m afraid i cudnt
i cudnt
i cudnt..
gal: (in some angry tone) ya i knw i m too gud for u acc to ma frnds..huh y did u hurt me so much?
guy: ya u r ryte u r too gud fr me.. n all i can do is say u "sorry" for everything..but blv me i didnt wanted to
use n ... u as ma frnds do wth gals..u r really nice gal i want u to be wth me whole life as a vry gud friend
gal:ok we wil always be like gud friends.. n its ok dnt be sorry
few more msgs...n finally log off...
but again c didnt gt any response frm him
no msg no call no more ping..(as a frnd also).....
..to be contd.

~~~~~~for him c was waiting n for her he was just ignoring ~~~~~~

Today again c ws trying to contact him frm d morning but smtimes it ws busy..smtimes not reachable n smtimes switched off
dat c come to knw abt all d recorded msgs frm customer care which irritate ppl so much..
well it was evening c had called him abt 40-50 times n endless no of msgs frm morning..but no reply :(
c ws wondering if he mgt b busy n thats he didnt repied..
so c again bcom busy waiting fr his reply....
at night c got call frm him..
gal :hey whr wer u all d day i ws just trying ur no so many times..
guy : ya i ws busy.. wats matter why u ws calling??
gal: do i need any reason to call u or wat?
guy: com'mn i was havin life before we met.. y u always want to talk or reply fr ur stupid msgs..
gal: hey dear.u r havin life aftr our relationship also... i didnt told u to talk whole day but u sud hav told me atleast dat u r busy..
guy: i dnt wann to b d matter of fun among ma frnds dat luk at him he is spoilin his career aftr gals...dnt u make me to think dat u ws one of ma mistake..uff leave it m damm tired n goin to sleep, gn
gal:(c wanted to ans..but c was speechless... silent..) dc d phn....
(ohh i think i hurted him i sud nt had behave lik dat...)c again tried d no. aftr few min it ws busy.......
c tried abt 2 or 3 times more still same irritating msg was cumin frm dat side .."the no u r trying is busy attending......."
it was d time c was feeling being irnored frm him............n was much confused wat c did wrong??
c was hurt a lot.. wasnt havin courage to share her pain also wth any one as dey had
alerted her many times abt dat guy.. or havin a relationship which was buit online (orkut)
pain was her.. c was goin through it silently n calmly..but yet c was nt ready to accept he did anything wrong
c was havin much blv on him n on d dream also dat he will definaetly come back to her
now c was remembering his one of d question and its meaning..:how can u say dat u r in love wth me?
it might be just an attraction??
but nw c was knowing vry well dat c was in love as c cud feel d pain of being ignored by him..
c was waiting fr him so long.... so dat one day will come whn he will realise her love n come back..
c bloked d frnd requst, made her realtionship status as commited on orkut (few more stupid things c did fr him)
....to be contd.

she was in love......

"na jane kab tu dil me h aaya
Banke
khushbu tu meri zindagi me samaya
Teri
har bat mujhko ab to lagti bhali h
Mai
kisi rah jau lage teri gali h
Meri
yado me rahe
Tu
mere sath chale
Banke
meri parchai
Haan ! !
mujhe pyar hua hai......................"
dis were d lines cumin straight frm her heart..aftr d first date..
it was feeling like she was waiting for him frm ages n nw her dreams ws changing into reality..
..she was on top of the world..
evry romantic song ws remindin her abt him..his whispered "i love you" ws still so fresh enough for
her to fall again n again fall in love wth him...
anaware of d fact dat her happiness will not last forever........
c spent few days wth d feeling in between reality n dream...
aftr 3-4 days~~~~~~~~~~
.............to be contd.

ahem ahem..!!!!!

It ws d time fr which c waited whole day impatientaly..
c gt d call:
guy :hello..its sneha?
gal:yup i ws waitin fr ur call only..
ohh so srry i ws busy in ma cousion engagement so didnt able to talk u dat time..
.i must say ur voice is so sweet just like u.n one more thing i frgt dat u had put a lovely pic in ur orkut profile...
gal :thnx..
nw d conversation continued fr sm more min..
guy :ok den meet me online tonite i need to talk.. i wann knw u some more..
c wanted to ask why bt remain silent n agreed..
guy: ok den bbye..
gal:bye
At night ::::chatting...
c got a ping..
guy: ahem ahem.. (it ws his fav online greetin )
gal: hey hello...
guy: well i think i like u.. m addicted to ur talkings...n u too..
gal: wat?(in confused state of mind)haha......i like u too :) u came online to say me dis only??haha....
guy: y laughing.. i really like u i cant say much nw bt i want u to be wth me whole life...
gal:hmm..
guy: well i think u r confused wat to asn.. den its okk leave it talk abt somthing else..
n continued chattin abt other things.......
aftr few minutes...
guy: ok den its too late i sud sleep nw, i hav to go to drop ma sis to kota....
gal: (c didnt wann let him go but..)ohh ok..
guy :gud ngt........
Next day he ws in d train: dey were chattin through msgs..
hey dear wat u did wth ur cell phn i m nt able to make u call?? n i m missing u like hell...
gal: why u miss me so much everytime??
guy: well u ask preety straight questions.. bt it mgt take few hours ,days or months to ans dis ..
just gve me smtime..followed by her :) :)
while returning frm der he made call to her ..
they talked whole day+ngt abt themselves n discussed abt almost everything..
n fixed program to meet fr a movie date....
to be contd....

when strangers become friends..

It was just like any othr day c ws much busy in orkutting..as usual so many frnd request n c ws ignoring almost all of dem..accidently c clickes on any frnd suggestion given ny orkut
a profile appeared havin a large frnd list..so nice communities n pictures of him c ws just nt intrsted in makin any new frnd so c returned to d homepage without much thinkin
or havin intrst of knowing him..next day a scrap appeared frm dat guy "well u visited ma profile do we knw each othr??"
c repied "no we dnt..u ws just in ma frnd suggestion n accidently i did" followed by cmmnts "hw rude" frm him..
It annoyed her a bit so c repied straight "yes i m".. again d scrap appeared "u always act so straight n blunt??
huh.. nw it ws too much so c prefered to keep silence as nt to escalate d issue.. but nxt scrap: so sneha wat u do?? r u a student?
yup i m.. so dnt u??
den few more scraps dey exchanged n as usual dey becom orkut frnds but a moment comes on orkut frm wer u cnt chat chat der as it takes time n u hav to knw ppl a bit fast
so Gtalk ws a bttr option fr dem..so dey did connect through gtalk shared abt themselves..lik hobbies..likes dislikes n they exchanged Sorry fr being a bit rude on orkut too..
c ws kind of open hearted gal so c shared lots abt her n he just lisened dem silently n seriously (as he pretended) as well complimenting wherevr it ws needed n so on ...
finally it ws time fr dem to say bye as he ws getting late fr sm work..
gal:bye
boy:dnt say bye i hate byes..tell me bye on d day when we wil nt b frnds any more....
gal:its okk i wont say bye.. tc
boy:u too
logg offff....
next day again c cm online bt cudnt found him.. n 3-4 days pased without havin chats wth him..so c decided to contact him (d most stupid thing c did) but no contact no.
uff again c ws disappointed all of sudden c found his no on d orkut profile.. yes i got it !! c tried d no but befor it cud ring c dissconnected.. wat wil he think abt me if i wil make call first??
but c ws so much excited to talk to him dat c didnt cared much n called..
Hello.. a voice came fr d opposite side.. c controled herself n "can i talk u ......" its sneha here..
omg a reaction fr his side frm whr did u gt ma no.. uff c wsnt expectin dis response but it ws so obvious so replied :sorry i took it frm ur orkut profile..
ohh its okk... nw i m in between of somthing i cant talk nw. its ur no?? i will call u in d evening....
gal:yes its mine.. followed by bbye.. dissconnected..
..nw c becm busy in waitin fr d evening....
.........to be cont.

just a thought..!!

Freedom n Dependency cnt dwell together if u r dependent upon someone u cant
be free...der is so many things inside u, but cnt express ur views, u cnt say truth.. simply not able to convey it to othrs
just frm d fear of dissapproval frm their side if they wil not like it dey mgt nt react well n bann ur freedom....

dis lonliness is tmporary????

"Its me begging u today~~ plz dnt leave me alone.... i need sm1 to cm n sit besides me,i hav to share lots of things wth u
i had tried to help many but nw i wann to be helped by u will u do so??
i really failed to judge ppl in ma life mgt be d reason dat i m alone or its ma bad luck??
i m a big emotional fool..ppl cm in ma life realised der importance to me n went hurting me back
n me...never ever learned frm ma mistakes n evrytime i fall in d same hole again n again..huh
i want to lean on ur shoulder wann cry a lot just feel ma pain i need u very badly.
m nt much strong n bold enough to handle dis world i need some frnds.. believe me i m d most unluky person in dis world.
.whenever i need sm1 vry badly
i look around n dont find anyone besides me atleast to whom i can share
ma feelings....com'n if u r der come n look me in my eyes, show me that u undrstand me and that u care.
u wil hav to show me dat ur feelings r true. promise me u won't hurt me.... plz don't do me like da othrs did or treatd me....
.I don't want u to be ma just another mistake.. care for me but don't hurt me, bcz once a tear falls, I knw it's d end of anther broken heart..."
suddnly I was woken by the sound of someone moving around....n found it ws just a dream..
so i woke up wth a smile in ma face,again started sharing problems, caring n trying to help othrs... enjoying wth thm but still i feel " i m alone"...!!!!!!

"DEEWAR" !!

Its beautiful day..after d rain sky is so clear n blue havin seven colours scattered ohh its rainbow..
birds rushing back to their homes .. their children making little noise in their nests as they see their
mama approaching..small children r playing outside...there are rain drops on flowers adding more beauty to it..
.n there is huge traffic jam on the road..while explaining d lines Raj turned n found..Abhi ws so delighted as if he can imagine
all those scenes..with his closed eyes....
ohh thnk god! i cud make him smile Raj thought..
It ws der daily routine from last few months....Raj explain evrything running outside d window as he got the permission to sit for 2-3
hours in a day for his dialysis...both of them were in d same ward n Raj ws wth d bed near to d window..both of them eagrly wait for this moment
so that they cn come closer to the nature n feel its beauty...
graadually Abhi started feeling jelous of Raj..y its always dat he can c all d beauty n just explain me..y cnt i watch them
through ma own eyes...once those hours were d most important part of d day for which he used to wait whole day nw become just an excuse for being sad for Abhi....
It was diwali's night evry1 was busy in enjoying sweets, burn crakers but der ws sm1 shoughting fr help..he ws restless
his voice lost in d noise of crakers, Abhi was knowing abt d pain n suffering of Raj but refused to help as he wants dat window side bed..
There is morning aftr every dark night..it was morning now but the person was not any more who describe its beauty..
Abhi was a bit sad for loosing one of his friend (ya we can call them as friends)..but he was overwhelmed wth joy dat he
will see all the beauty with his eyes,he dont need anyone more to explain them..
His bed was shifted near the window.. with the support of his hands somehow he managed to peep out of the window....ohh myy god!! he was shocked..wats this????
becoz....

"samne ek deewar thi.."

smwhr smone is waitin fr u....

IN ma classroom der were really sm brainees ..so tensed abt d exams as it ws d last class of 3rd sam ,n some really cool heads still crackin jokes n enjoying d last class too
as fr thm still 2 days left to study.. well i fall in 2nd category.. :)
i ws just enjoying n laughing yet one of ma frnd (priya) come to me n asked to talk to me..i ws sure c wsnt fond of askin question related to studies...so its okk..
ye tell me whts d prob??
c started: deepa, u knw ma mom is in hospital frm last few days,n c want to meet u.... can u manage to come??
i ws a bit surprised y c wann meet me der mgt b lots of relatives around her.. i heard once dat c is sufering frm blood cancer frm last 2yrs n nw in final stage..
priya realised ma confusion so c continued.. dnt worry i had shared many things abt u wh her..its a bit strange but c enjoy talkin abt u..c laughs at ur jokes,likes ur attitude abt life
n blah blah...
hey its okk i got it but u knw we r havin exams frm day aftr tommrw, so i will come aftr exams is it f9??(it ws d perfect excuse dat time i cud had made)
as u all knw whether u study or not but we can't rome outside on d previus day of exam..
c nodded her head as c agreed n went off wth... whenevr u b free give me a call i will provide u d infrmation as d ward no. and all..
and me again joined ma group as i had missed many of der jokes..
it ws d day of my exams i was puzzled as didn't slept d whole ngt, (why at d last moment we wonder of getting some more time for preparation huh !).
all of sudden ma mobile beeps.. its text msg !! it must be a gud luck msg fr exams which i ws needed vry badly..
ohh its priya.. and d msg was like dis..
" my maa is no more, baat karne ka man v nahi hai aur himmat v nai ,all d best fr ur exams... !!"
i was socked.. wat ws dis ?? i read that msg twice n thrice ya it ws true.. i call her n come to knw c passed away last evening and her last words was
"deepa nahi aayi?? ohh c is a kid na toh hw cud c come alone?? my voice was chocked, i didnt spoke a word.. i cried a lot for sm1 whom i didnt ever met !!
I went fr exams with my red eyes filled wth tears ....i realised the meaning of pain. Pain is personal. It really belongs to the one feeling it. Probably the only thing that is your own.
I have mine... I did well in exams... hav gt answers of many things in ma life but dat question is still in ma mind.. y c ws waiting for me??????

few steps..! !

With few dreams in my eyes, faith in heart... i startd my journy , bt as i step out in this world no one noticed me at all, without knwing ma capabilities, dey ignored me.
ma ideas... i wasn't much worried becoz i ws sure once dey will come to knw abt it they will definetly appreciate..
so smhow i managed to convey ma plannings~ wat i wann to do..
ohh but nw.. they come up with reaction like-- wat?? wat u wann do??
as if i cracked any joke infront of them.. they made fun of me..my views !!
yet i was havin faith that i will make them understand.. what i am... so i had given them d last chance... and they come up wth some different reactions like "insulting" which made me
realise the fact "Those who have faith need no explanation, for those who have no faith, no explanation is possible." it was so true !!
and i made myself more focused on my goal. i was having enough time now, as i had stopped to waste it on people who were not willing to waste their time on me..(as they pretended)
n finally i got successed in ma plans.... i was so happy as my dreams were now become my reality.. i wanted to share it with everyone, forgottn all d ignorance,insults everything given by them
but again d same story.. wtf ...they declined ma success at all !! tried to proved their superioriority !! but till now i ws familiar with them so i remain constant n enjoyed my success..
wow !! its gud to c they reacting so nicly ..their insult changed into respect, n nw m being noticed by evry1...so strange!!
Well I got ma conclusion in d form of few steps how ppl react to ma plans n dreams :-
"Upeksha"
"Uphas"
"Tiraskar" n
"Daman"
Think well of urself n proclaim dis fact to d world...... nt in loud words bt in grt deeds!!!

dis is ur world.. shape it or sm1 else will..

there was a gal, so innocent n shy....simple yet attractive.she was delicate..anythin said about her directly hit her heart.......
...n she burst out into tears.....
yet she was vry happy in her own world ~~~world of fantacies~~~ where everything ws a miracle..every moment was special.she was flying with birds,talking to rainbows,
as c wasliving in her world, one day she met a stranger, for whom she was waiting for ages n nw her dream gt wings..she was on top of the worlds.she wished to touch the horizons
BUt............he introduced her to a new world ~~the world of reality~~ it ws a lot tough for her but she stepped down from her world to his world and
ws trying to undrstnd d rules of livin..her miracles were changing into disasters.her smile was changing into distress. yet she was working hard to adapt to the new world.As it is said "no dream lasts forever", it happend wth her also
c lost d prsn of her dreams n also d way of returning to her own world, nw c ws all alone..into an alien world
c spent sleepless ngts crying fr him.talking with him in her dreams .bt all goes in vain.she never smiled again......
as time passed by she decided to change her self. she went away from this world &noone knew & no one cared whre c went !!
ppl say she had changed herself a lot.. nw c has learned to smile,and make others smile. her presence make others happy,
her absence makes others want her for more.,she left her shyness,became more frank,cool n she loves to share n solve others problem..
yet her own hurts are so deep that no one can reach them or heal them with words. so she prefered to leave them
undisscussed..actually i m a bit worried fr her..i cnt see her in pain anymore as every ngt i found her crying......
~~~~~~in ma mirror !!!!!

u r alone?? so u r with urself !!!!

u r sad with having any of the following reasons?? some of plans are nt accepted by others,
any venture failed, broken heart, results nt upto your expectations..
uff there r lots of reasons i cnt mention all..
n nw for you the world come to an end.nt intrsted in sharing your problems at all..somtimes resulting in.. no hope to live..
commo'n its ok to feel sad when there is somthing to feel sad about. but ask yourself are your reasons
enough ?? becoz may be the person sitting next to you is having more reasons but he
is facing all of them with all his bravity and courage. ya i know patients,bravity n these things differ from
person to person but remember you failed becoz you attemped the things.. there are many people who
declare their defeat without attempting..i always realised although the world is full of sufferings,
it is also full of overcoming of it..so why can't you overcome from it..
okk !!! nw turn a few pages back to your life.. you was so happy guy, havin lots of frnds to enjoy, always in hurry
as havin very few time left to fullfill d dreams.. never got time for yourself, to look inside d heart, to read own mind
as you were damn busy doing so for smone else..you never realised your own beauty, potential to do things and now when
u are alone you are so much afraid with your own company !! but dear friends !! if you can't tolrate yourself how could you
expect it from someone else .. sitting next to you and solving your problems??

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF AND ALL THAT YOU ARE.. KNOW THAT THERE IS SOMTHING INSIDE YOU
THAT IS GREATER THAN ANY OBSTACLE !!

daddy's little girl....

all through my growing years, a question i persistently aimed at my father was, "who u love more,
my sister or me?"a man of few words, his answer would be an equivocal "equally".For a man who was
known for his directness and someone you could rely on for an honest answer his reply ws nt
what i expected..... besides i always think if he cud be ma favoriate how cud he not have one..
if someone ask me who's ur favorite i always say my papa!! undoubtly bt he didnt come up wth ma expectations
as to call me his favoriate child..
year rolled and i become busy , busy n more busy in my own world.. schools, new friends, games n there were
many things which kept me so occupied that somehow i managed to believe that i dont care let him to love
my sister more, becoz whenevr we conversed ..only about the studies studies n ohh again studies
i started enjoying my own world- of my friends (at that time acc. to me they were better as i could disscuss everything which i cudn't do with
papa) !!
i soon completed 10th and left home for further studies..till then there were many inctances of insecurity,
but i managed to hold on to my believe and as there were many times when he could have said somthing
but let the moment pass..
one day while i was enjoying my vacations at home i got his diary n a paper fall down from it..
i was curious to read that becoz it was starting with my name..
dear deepa !!
...........................
i read further and that was the golden day of my life..a tear rolled on my cheeks as i come to know all
my answers.. why sometimeshe become so rude with me.. he wanted me to believe in myself,
to follow d role models like swami vivekanand kalpana chawla and not the actors who don't have their own life also...
.he wanted me to be ideal for my younger sister..
and rite from their my world started changing, my dreams become more focused as i come to know
they are not only mine there is someone who cared for them more then myself...........
" i often regrated things done according to his wish but never for the things left undone just becoz
he didn't want me to do... "